I'm proud of myself for not completely forgetting about LJ again. Especially since EXAMS ARE OVER and I officially don't have to care about school anymore. And since most of the people I know who applied ED got in, and parties are erupting all over the place. BUT I DIDN'T FORGET. So I'm giving myself a virtual pat on the back :]

And I finally got my swimming pictures in so I won't fail first semester and have to redo P.E. arlghgghgh such a useless class most people cut anyway but nooo, I had to SWIM and suck at it.

Errghh what else. Ohyees, I finished christmas shopping today!! Walked my feet off though, I totally didn't expect to hit five stores today. I'm never ever ever wearing those boots again. Well. Not this week, anyway :]

so I was going to post something before I went and checked my early decision for Dartmouth, but I got too scared I was going to write something super hopeful then have it completely torn down in front of me.

BUT I DON'T HAVE TO. BECAUSE.

I'M IN COLLEGE NOW. DARTMOUTH '13

I actually screamed so loud my neighbors thought I was getting raped. And then after I apologized to them, started tearing. lakshflg MY HEART'S ONLY STARTED TO CALM DOWN.

I had my first get-up-at-the-crack-of-dawn-shopping daaay! Well not really crack of dawn. More like 7, BUT TO ME IT'S THE CRACK OF DAWN. Soooanyhow, my friends and I opted not to go to the freakishly crowded malls and went for a nice, relaxing powerstroll around our neighborhood, which has tons of places to shop. Sadly, not many of those places were open at 7, but stiill, I managed to spend about $200 bucks on what would have been a $450+ bundle of goodies. SO I'M FEELING ACCOMPLISHED.

Didn't get anything really special; two dresses, one black one red for possible choices in winter formal/prom, sweatpants and a sweater, two sleeping shirts and a bra, and various other pieces of clothing that I forget. But I'm just so happy about getting that adorable Victoria's Secret tote for freeee~ I LOVE GETTING FREE STUFF. I don't even mind buying completely useless things to get it, I just love free stuff. I dunno, there's something just so nice about getting something for free. Honestly, I think I like the stuff in the tote better than I do the stuff that I actually bought to get the tote. But that's just me :]

Aaaaand I got a new game! Haha, I'm so too old to play video games, but I got one anyway 'cause I needed something to do with my hands. I got the Nintendo DS, and Harvest Moon DS Cute <3 It's such an adorable name too, I can't wait to figure out how to work the buttons and the touch screen and start reliving my childerhood.

EXCITED NOW.

( twilight movie spoilers )
In other news, I hate colleges. THANKS FOR RUINING MY THANKSGIVING, SUPPLEMENTS.

I had my first interview today! Dartmouth alum interview, and it wasn't as bad as I figured it was going to be, which is always a good thing. She was so supernice and a lot younger than I expected, plus she's teaching at some charter school in Harlem even though she got an Ivy League education. I have so much respect for her it's not even funny. And she's so SWEET about everything, I mean we went to Starbucks and she accidentally nearly bumped into someone and she was like, "Oh, I'm so sorry!" and I was just like ARE YOU FOR REAL. Here's hoping she's writing a good recommendation for meee~

And really, I'm supposed to be doing college supplements 'cause thank GOD I'm done with the commonapp, but like. For some reason I've got it into my head that I'm getting into the stupid college, and don't want to waste my time doing apps. But if I do get deferred, I'm going to be so devestated that I won't have the presence of mind to do the other supplements. Plus I get the acceptance/deferral in December 7-12, which is during exams, which could either mean nothing to me, or be the extra something that'll get me accepted or rejected. ARGGHGH oh the frustration.

( today's house episode was such a snoozecake )

SO NOW I DON'T KNOW IF I LIKE TWILIGHT MORE, OR IF I LIKE MAKING FUN OF TWILIGHT MORE. It's kind-of distressing, because I always seem to get a feeling of making fun of it when I'm around people who love it, and I start to love it when I'm around people who think it's the biggest joke in the world. WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO DOOO.

This Twilight post had me bent over double in my chair, trying not to hack up my lunch, and is probably going to have me come back to it multiple times within the hour. So much for college apps, hmmm? ANYONE WHO LOVES/HATES/HAS THE SLIGHTEST IDEA WHAT THE BOOKS ARE, YOU SHOULD READ IT. Guaranteed procrastination :]

So I figured out a happy medium between my love for Twilight, and my love for its hil-fucking-larious spoofs. I mean I can read the books just fine without laughing at it, although maybe a grimace here and there for the vocabulary (although I haven't read the last one yet, uh-ohh), and the usual hair-pulling because of Bella's "I think it's too late for that, Jake. How can we be friends, when we love each other like this?" I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU GUYS, but I would kill myself before I talked about love like that to any of my friends. We're talking poison in a bottle here. But yeah other than that I'm so totally imagining myself as Bella and praying to God that I'm gonna get me an Edward.

COLLEGE HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE. OFFICIALLY.

Good news is, I finished my early app to Dartmouth and now only have to do seven more freakishly annoying supplements in which I will attempt to convey the fascinating specimen that is myself. It's hellish, trying to pour your soul into words, especially if you don't exaactly know who you are. Like what do colleges expect, "I THINK YOU SHOULD TAKE ME 'CAUSE I'M COOL AND I'M BETTER THAN ALL THOSE OTHER APPLICANTS". Yeah uh-huh.

Yeah so just wanted to keep this journal only semi-comatose. Which reminds me, I'm in love with House now, so I should get a new stack of icons, and join a bunch of comms. Along with the revived Twilight thing (shhh don't judge me) I really should be online more than I am. Ahwell MY FUTURE CALLS.

I miss you guys :(

So I've been getting a lot of emails from friends from the Olympics and I keep meaning to get back to them but it's just that I don't want to. And I'm not sure if anyone else has this, but at one point I just get tired of keeping in contact and procrastinate writing back emails until I've completely forgotten about it. It's not that I don't like the people anymore, it's that I've got so many things to do and for some reason, I feel that posting an entry on LJ about writing back to them will take less time and energy than actually writing back to them.

BUT I MEAN I CAN'T HELP IT. I'm not supposed to not want to keep contact with them, but I do, and it's confusing meliekwhoa.

SO I LIED. China does block LJ. Shizzles. There's just way too much to write about, the Olympics alone would probably take me fifty hours, and if I add in my little off-the-tangent remarks, even longer, AND I'M NOT MASOCHISTIC so I won't do that. But a basic overview was that I worked as a volunteer in the National Indoor Stadium, which had Gymnastics, Trampoline and the finals of Handball, and took shizzles of pictures. And that I'm in love with one of the Chinese gymnasts. I would post pictures, but that would mean that I'd have to go and upload them onto photobucket, which I don't have the time for now because of college apps.

It's such a downer, college. I mean, I was all on a high and stuff from the Olympics, and it was just so freeing to be with kids (well not kids, but  you know) 21+, because they were already in college and didn't have this stuff to worry about and garrghghh. The day I got back home I got this college packet from my school and it was like, "I hope you've had a restful summer, 'cause the resting is about to end" (or the general gist was, haha), and I was rudely awakened from my jetlagged leftover euphoria.

I just wanted to post 'cause I missed LJ, and I need someone to bring me back to the real world. And 'cause I have nothing to do in the wee hours of the morning. :]

I DID MISS YOU ALL THOUGH <3

KAYS. So going to be going on a 13+ hour plane ride tomorrow. My excitement is contagious, isn't it.

...yeah okay.

And I'm probably not going to have internet connection for the majority of the two months, considering that I'm probably going to be doing Olympic-related stuff (boring, footpeople work. No, I don't get to see the athletes. No, I don't get to go to games for free. Hopefully the experience will make up for the complete lack of excitement) the entire time. But I will fight with my cousin for his computer, so I may get on here once in a while.

Extended essay update (oh I could drown in the joys of IB):
0/4000 words written
a biiit of bibliography work done
doodled in the margins of printouts in highlighter

So I was a retard and deleted my entry. But thankfully, I had it saved on my computer. Wheee.


So I haven't posted in a while. Eh. BUSY STUFF GOING DOWN. I was in Maine for a week, which was great 'cause I got to see Bates and visit relatives, ya-da ya-da, and realized that Bates would actually be a great school for me. So even if I don't get into the school(s) that I've prioritized, I still have a really good option later. Provided that I get into that option. Mmf. Well yes, nice little vacation, played video games all day, not something I'm used to, but it was fun anyway. Had my phone off, so I missed a flurry of movement from my friends as they went on their various vacations, which sucks 'cause I didn't get to hang out with them, and so I'm never leaving my phone off for long periods of time EVER AGAIN. And also, I'm going to Dartmouth this Saturday, going to be in the car for like 10 hours or so, KILL ME? And what if it's not all it's cracked up to be? WHERE WILL MY DREAM SCHOOL BE, THEN. And then on Sunday, I'm going to that Gay Pride Parade thing! Wooos. Never been to one before, and I figure if I get bored I can always go to see Wanted or Wall-e with my friend who I'm dragging along. WILL TAKE PICS. Yay. And so after a hectic weekend, I'll be on a 13+ hour flight to China! I'm excited already. See. Excitement. And I'll be in Beijing for a few days, then going to Shanghai to visit my doggies 'n kitties 'n whatnots (my dad has a house there, it's complicated), and then I'm having a friend over from Korea, and then I'm rushing back to Beijing to do... other things that I'm still not quite clear about.

IT'S GOING TO BE A BUSY SUMMER.


EDIT: Holy crap Ivanovic. WHAT'S WITH THIS YEAR'S WIMBLEDON. Although I'm happy for China (whee go China), WHAT IS THIS. I will cry tears of blood if Federer doesn't win. Although now everyone's saying that it's Rafa's time, so technically Federer's the... underdog? And the favorites haven't been having a good run. So maybe that's a good sign for him? Arrghghgh.

EDIT 2: So I'm watching ESPN2 and turns out, both Roddick and Blake are out, and Davydenko (ew) got out first round or something. REALLY, WHAT'S WRONG HERE.


AND HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO ED WESTWICK. And we're only five years apart, so I WILL WAIT FOR HIM. Or uh, the other way around. Oh ilubb <3

SO I MADE BREAKFAST FOR MYSELF TODAY. Yeah uh-huh amazing. It was a cross between scrambled eggs and a tomato omelette, but IT WAS EDIBLE. And was actually pretty good, if I say so myself.

Next up, FOIS GRAS AVEC LES TRUFFLES.

Yeah okay.

And in other news, I love Brian Kinney again, like whooooa. I never stopped loving him, but there was a definite break somewhere between march?Ithink and now.

BUT HE'S AMAZING AGAIN. And he's fantastic and he loves Justin and his voice is going to haunt my dreaaams <3 I was debating between watching the first season over again, but I'm way too impatient and would probably skip everything anyway. SO SECOND SEASON YAY.

FINALS ARE OVER.

NYSSMA IS OVER.

SCHOOL IS OVER.

No wait, no, I've still got Extended Essay and college visiting and finishing up to do. But ye gods it's SUMMER VACATION.

And what better to top it all off with RAFA WINNING THE ARTOIS CHAMPIONSHIPS. God he so deserved this, I love me some Novak, but Rafa's just that much more amazing <3

SO FRENCH OPEN '08, BEST EVER.

not that I've been much of a religious tennis fan before now, but ehh. Maria Sharapova is actually like, my girlcrush. And I never get those, never ever ever ever everrr. But she's gorgeous. And she plays really well, no matter what those stupidass critics have to say, even if she does sound like a man when she's on court. AND UM WTF@SAFINA? I mean I was sort of rooting for her in the beginning, but I wanted Maria to winnnnn. And now like, she's lost her number 1 spot to Ivanovic/Jankovic, which is depressing, because she would've made a great #1. I dunno, balance out the Federer looks.

It would be great if Safina won the French Open, sort of like Jennifer Hudson's cinderella story at the Oscars. But I don't want to see... I think it's Ivanovic? get beaten, 'cause then she'll probably lose that spot too. I dunno. Tennis is confusing.

BUT OH MY GOD NOVAK DJOKOVIC. Ahh those Serbs, I love them. Now I don't even know if I want Nadal to win... no yes I take that back, RAFA FOR FRENCH OPEN 'O8. I mean come on, HE NEEDS TO MAKE HISTORY. Clay's his only good court, he needs to whoop Federer's ass and win on the only court that he can beat him on. Djokovic can have Australia, but don't steal Rafa's glory D:

He's hilarious, though. Ahhaha and his site, IRRISTABLE CHARM. And playing tennis in a tux? Umokay, I thought that was just Federer's style?

I love him. Just. Please lose in the semis. heartsies <3

2360, BABY.

So I felt that I needed to share. alskhgh. ThankGOD, I would've had to kill myself if I had to take that stupid test over again. But naturally, my ecstatic state was clouded over by the fact that within ten minutes of me finding out my score, everyone in my grade knew it as well. It was just like. Umwow? People started coming up to me and alternately congratulating me and giving me the evil eye, it was weird. I know that I should be insanely grateful for actually getting that score, but it slightly scares me that so many people are comparing themselves to me now, and trying to beat me. Especially my own friends, 'cause they're the most competitive in the grade, and I can already tell that there will be some iciness that I'm going to to have to ignore. And the only reason I wasn't mauled today was 'cause I had my Anthro exam, and could avoid classes and shiz.

BUT I'M SO HAPPY.

And I only have Paper 2 of  my Anthro exam left!! Cue the excitement.

I wanted to completely swear off anything LJ or internet related until my SATs in May, then my Anthro IB exam also in May, and my finals in June, 'cause I need to ace all of them in order to get into Dartmouth/Williams/whatever college I want to go to. But I got back into this old fandom of mine that's so addictive, and I've been reading fanfictions whenever I'm not with my friends, and generally wasting the entire Spring Break. Yarghgh, why don't my plans go as planned??

And it sucks, 'cause I don't talk to most of my internet friends anymore now that we have different interests; I mean, I guess it's good in the way that I know which friends I actually connect with, but still. It's depressing not to be bombarded with different IMs talking about the latest development in the world, or whatever it is that we used to talk about. What sucks even more is that I don't particularly mind. It's like I've grown up and past that phase, and they're still in it, even though all of them are older than me, and it's just like. Like I feel that they're keeping me back from growing. I dunno. I'm all confused and crap. I want to be able to type out a hugeass rant about my life, and have it sorted and out of my system, but the words just aren't flowing.

Ah yeah, words. I so envy the people who can write out huge stories with complex and convoluted plots without having to work at it, having it just flow, channeling the characters and the entire situation to make their readers believe it so much that the fandom that the story is based off of is less interesting? That didn't make sense right there. BUT STILL. I look at my fanfiction account, and it's like, hrm I have become a better writer, but I can't manage to get that natural feel that the other authors get. Not that I'm complaining, 'cause if I could do that I would have to work at it and feel compelled to write, and with my procrastination schedule I wouldn't be able to fit that in, but still. It would be nice, to be creative and flow-y and all that stuff.